I tried to tell u!!!!!

(Some were I found this poem and just wanted to share it with all)

I tried to tell you I love you
but the words were hard to find.

I'm always thinking about you
you're the only one on my mind.

Oh why do I act so shy forever hiding my face
I should learn to laugh and not to cry

put yourself in my place.

There were times I tried to kiss you but something told me no.
You wanted me to hold you but

I kept letting you go.

I'm afraid that I am not the guy
you've searched for all these years.

I will kindly leave now don't you cry
try to hold back your tears.

It's been so long I haven't seen you
for quite awhile

When I think of how we me met it only
brings back your smile.

I remember when I held you then and
told you we'd never part

I loved you then, I love you now and
I'll hold you in my heart.

Class 7C*

'Class 7 C', Seems like a movie title right? But it is not movie this time, its my class when I was studying 7'Th standard in St. Anthony's High School, Himayat Nagar, Hyderabad.

Few days back, when I was searching for something and was emptying all the racks, one of the photographs slipped out and it was of Class 7 C. One glance of this photograph brought in loads of memories. I was always fortunate to have great set of Friends where ever I am and same happened with the school too. And being in one school from Kindergarten to 10'Th standard fetched me a great set of friends.

Below is that photograph and from it, I remember most of the boys and few girls. So, I have named the boys in row and girls, just who all I remember.

Names in bold: we are still in touch ; Names in normal font: I just remember the names

Top row(L to R): Rajani Kanth, Pragati prasad, Bindu Sagar, Bharat Bushan, ??, Jagadish, P Vikranth, Me, Sunil, Sridhar, Deepesh, Sumanth. 2'nd row(L to R): Kalyan, PY Kiran, Ramu, Maruthi, GS Vikranth, ??, Ramana, Ravikanth, Ravi Prasad, Rama Krishna, ??, Yadiaiah, Girls: Chandana, Rajani, Shailaja, Ananta Lakshmi, Shilpa, K Shailaja, Sruthi, Deepika, Usha, Ujwala

Talking about school days, I had lots of interests rather than interests I can say that I was mad of many things. To name a few, collecting pens, playing video games, spending on my Bicycle and to top it all, I was great admirer of Dinosaurs, yes! Dinosaurs.

Everything I had, used to have at least one dinosaur on it. Book covers, Labels, bags, lunch box, pens and when ever I get some time, I used to draw pictures of Dino's. I had a 2 foot skeleton model of T. Rex and loads of Dino stuff that I can gather. I used to read about Dino's, Dream about Dino's and always think about them. At one point I even considered to be a Paleontologist. I must have watched Jurassic park at least 200 times.

When I think about it now, I feel crazy. Now I realize why people around me used to call me crazy at those times. But my love for Paleontology never ceased and some where in the remote corner of my brain, I still want to be a Paleontologist. :-)

BTW, our class teacher, Pankajavalli teacher is the best teacher in whole of my schooling and my love for science developed from her teachings only.

School days are funny days...........

P.S: I am not sure why, Sundeep and Rameshwar are missing in the above photograph.

*As far as I know it's 7'Th class but there are fair chances for it to be 8'Th class too.

Gosh!! Its been 9 years

Yes, I feel exactly like that when I think about it. I am taking about start of my 'Happy Days' i.e., my first day in Engineering collage. I still remember the first day, 23'rd November 1998. In another 2 days, it will be 9 years, sooo long but it seems so short, the memories are still very fresh.

As I said earlier, there is lot and lot more to come from these days on this blog and for convenience I have labeled these special posts with "'Happy Days' Forever".

For now, I just have to say that I will be off for rest of the week and have no access to Internet. I will be back with more posts from next week onwards.

Finally, to all my friends out there(From School, Collage, Graduation, work), I miss you all and thanks for being with me all the time!!!

Chao!!!

Self Made man

Bobbie Carlyle's 'Self-made man', a statue I greatly admire and a principle I strongly believe in.



Bobbie Carlyle's 'Self-made man'


If you look at the above picture, you will see a man carving himself from a stone. As I said in real life too, I believe the same. What we are is what we carve for ourselves with our body, mind and soul. At the end of the day, we are 'only' responsible for our actions and we are answerable to ones own self.

And when we are able to answer all the questions truly for ones self, I think that's is the first step to success and success for mankind.

To brief:

"...left to his own devices, man will use his God-given talents to be creative, productive, and prosperous. Using free will, he will better his own situation and that of those around him, thereby influencing in a positive way his own destiny..." *


* I picked this paragraph from some where on the web

Chemistry.....Scores....Judges....Please vote

As the weekend is soon approaching, by chance if you turn on the idiot box(TV) to watch any of the National or regional channels* the most popular words that you will hear on them are Chemistry, Scores, Judges, Please vote. Before your imaginations get wild let me tell that these are the terms used by anchors, participants, judges in the reality dance shows.

These dance shows are of various types, I mean the limit is the wildest imagination of the conceptual designer. One common thing in all the dance shows is that they are performed by pairs and as each show should be different than another one show has popular TV stars who are couples in real life, one show has a choreographer and a famous personality(not an actor), one show has a choreographer and a TV star and the combinations go on....

For me, these so called 'Reality Shows' do not seem not at all real. The reason, in fact they are a couple:

To start from, the selection of judges. In all the shows, there will be three judges, where one will be rough, straight forward and bold in his/her comments, one will be very soft and appreciate everyone and the other is some were in between these two, neither too praising or criticizing. All this to cater all types of audiences and to take the audience into emotional trauma with their comments.

There will be differences at least among two teams which are participating, most commonly it comes by one team commenting something personal on the other and they create a big drama in front of the audience(Not to forget that these all the in fact actors by profession).

There will be elimination of the teams depending on the scores they get from the judges and audience votes. By any chance if any team gets eliminated, the audience can vote for them and get their liked team back in the race. What Crap!!!!

There are some other things but at this moment they are not striking in my mind now.

Now, coming to the words:

Chemistry: why Chemistry god why? for every couple, after they finish their dance the judges talk about their Chemistry either good or bad. What the hell has Chemistry to do with it??

Scores: As I talked about the behaviour of the judges above, their scores also reflect the same. I mean, one scores low, once high and one in between. Yeah, I agree that some times all of them give full scores when the performance is good but what skeptical to me is, when the performance is not good why all the judges 'not' give low scores?

Judges: Come on guys, we are the audience, judges are not audience. We are the guys who sit through those silly advertisements which pop up every 8 minutes and waste out time. But the participants behave in such a way that they are dancing for he judges, and to impress them. I agree that in every competition the judges should be impressed but this seems to be too flamboyant to me.

Please Vote: Now, its the turn of the audience. The teams, plead the audience to pleeease pleeease vote for them. And its something that is not free. We have to vote for the team we like through SMS's or calling a special number and choosing the option for the team we like. But the catch is, the costs for these SMS's and calls are much higher than the normal charges.

So, my final judgement on these dance shows: Teams which dance and Judges get paid for what the are doing, the programme producers earn hefty amounts through advertisements between the programme, the TV channels TRP ratings get high and its ranking increases.

But he only people who get screwed here are us the audience, who watch and waste one hour of our precious time over the weekend and I pity the people who in fact vote!!!

*In India

'Bug'ged up weeks!

Past two weeks were really busy. So busy, that I did not get time,even to update my blog. WoW, I never imagined that I will be sooo busy that I will not even get 20/30 minutes a day to update my blog!

Being in the 'Software Testing' field, one has to know that 'one' bad build can really screw up an entire week! For us, last couple of builds were very bad and with 'basic functionality' also not working fine, we were on our toes for past two weeks. Finding bugs / crashes /exceptions, creating MR's(Modification requests) and again testing after getting an update from the developer - these were the only things on our 'to do' list.

Usually, even in situations like these, I grab some time to update the blog (during installations / uninstallations) but our IT guys, being the protectors of Band width, blocked the blogger site and indirectly blocked me from updating the blog.

At home, 'my not so friendly' CA personal Firewall was giving me a lot of problems during surfing the web. It made my Internet speed 10 to 15times slower, making it impossible to update my blog. After a lot of thinking and troubleshooting for over a month, I uninstalled CA and moved to Kaspersky which is so far OK.

So... that's what happened to me in past 2 weeks, finding bugs, at work in the day and fighting alien bugs in Halo 2 at home, during the nights. So, my past two weeks were spent with bugs day and night :-).

Now, most of the major bugs have been fixed at work(at least for this build), God know what's going to happen with the next!! But for now,there are lots of alien bugs for me to kick ass in Halo 2. I hope I will continue my blogging spree again from today onwards....

So, good bye for now, gotta kick some alien butt!!!!!